October has already proven itself to be overwhelmingly busy with three teaching engagements, an art show to prepare for, and finishing up a BIG part of a VERY EXCITING PROJECT (more details to come on this!!!!).
I have only been able to enjoy small snippets of time surrounded by nature and the season of Autumn that I love so. Because of these brief interludes, each moment has seemed magnified, and I have worked harder to hold on to them with every ounce of my being.
I suppose when one is extremely rushed, going hither and yon, to and fro, it is very easy to have your thoughts scattered to the wind. Yet, I have found that I draw deeper into myself and really begin to search my soul for more guidance and wisdom, reflecting more on my hopes and wishes.
I always feel so very grateful for having the chance to live this life.. and lately these feelings have caused me to breakdown quite often into a puddle of tears... tears of joy coming from my very core.
Even at the tender age of 40, I find myself intensely contemplating the directions of my everyday... where do I want to be.. here, now,... today,... tomorrow,... weeks,... and years later.
What desires and wonderings will simply fade into the background of my thoughts and which will move to the forefront.
I have been both comforted and stirred by a quote I read recently from Rudolf Steiner, "May My Thinking Be Creative and Fill The World With Light".
I feel a great need to embrace this mantra and examine my choices more closely.
I want to be that light, that brilliant glow of love and compassion, of kind words, deeds, filled to the brim and overflowing with creative fervor. I want to share and experience minutes and hours of profound inspiration and revel in the joys of friendship and love.
What a full life indeed that we all might lead... by recognizing and striving toward our dreams.