Monday, March 18, 2013

Recalling All The Joys Of Life

Two weeks ago, my feelings for home and family were forever altered. These feelings now resonate so much deeper than I have ever experienced...

On Tuesday, March 5th, I learned my mother had terminal cancer. The devastating news came as a complete shock. Even today I am still reeling, trying desperately to catch-my-breath and wrap my mind around this horrendous fact.  


I am back in the studio for the first time since traveling cross-country to be by my mother's side. It feels good to be home, easing back into a familiar routine that defines my days, but my heart is still at her bedside. Although work is a good outlet, my mind continues to wander today.  I find myself drawn, over and over again, toward the pieces of my beautiful new fabric collection,
Our House, that sit neatly stacked on the work table. As a small comfort, I continue to clutch the fabrics in my hand, feel the soft fibers between my fingers, read and re-read the soothing poetic verses of home... 
Like so many of us know and understand when urgent events happen, it is family, friends and home where you find refuse from the intense storms of life.


25 comments:

Heather said...

Oh honey, I am so sorry to hear this news. My thoughts will be with you and your Mama during this difficult time. Miss you. Lots of love.....

sjmcdowell said...

Prayers of comfort and Love for you and your Mama.
Nothing ever stays the same in this life of ours. The only thing that will never fade, is our deep and abiding love for the ones who hold our hearts, within their own.

Love is all around you and your Mama...

sjmcdowell said...

Prayers of comfort and Love for you and your Mama.
Nothing ever stays the same in this life of ours. The only thing that will never fade, is our deep and abiding love for the ones who hold our hearts, within their own.

Love is all around you and your Mama...

Leslie said...

Oh dear, Tracie! I'm so sorry that you and your family received this devastating news. I'll be thinking of you and hugging you tightly in my heart.

Katherine Dunn said...

Sending you my love and compassion, my friend.A difficult reality to face no matter what your age or circumstance...xo

Glenda Hoagland said...

My dear friend, I so empathize with you. After reading your post, I can understand how Malika felt when she came to be with me. I feel your pain and concern. Know that you are in my thoughts and if there is anything I can do please let me know. Love always.

HollyM said...

Oh Tracy, I'm so sorry that your mom has gotten this devastating news. It happens to us all eventually but doesn't make it easier. You will draw your family closer.
Thinking of you.

Jeannie said...

Gathering you and your Mom up in a warm hug and sending thoughts of strength and courage. I know to well how hard it is to be away from her. Please know that I am here if you need to rant, vent, or just talk. Sending love to you and yours. xoxo

Anna said...

Such hard news to process. I pray you have family , friends and faith to sustain you. May this fabric be part of the creating process during this hard time.

Wanda Eash AKA "Craftymule" said...

I'm so sorry.

Sue in the Wood said...

Prayers for all of you.

Gloria Hansen said...

Oh Tracie, I am SO sorry to read this news. I am sending you love and compassion and strength to you during this very sad and difficult time.

Rachel said...

Having lost my mom to cancer several months ago my heart goes out to you and your family. This verse from Psalm 145 was meaningful to me during many months: "The Lord is near all who call out to Him." I pray that God's presence will be a strong anchor for you.

Lisa said...

I'm so sorry to hear your terrible news. I'm sending many prayers and blessings your way. It's good that you were able to fly out and be at her side. Sometimes these terrible things can be a blessing when they help us to focus on what is most important. Just take it one day at a time.

Ruth said...

Tracie, I'm so sorry about this terrible news. I hope you'll get some additional time with your Mom. Ill be thinking of you.

Diana Trout {Nan.DT@verizon.net} said...

Oh Tracie, I'm so sorry. It sounds like you are being gentle with yourself. That has always been what has gotten me through. To hold those sad feelings and honor them. Sending lots of love, Diana

purple bird art said...

I'm so sorry to hear your sad news. Sending you love and prayers and strength to help you and your mother through this difficult time.

Monica said...

(((hugging you tight))).
You and your Mom won't be left alone. Be sure of that...
xoxo

Elizabeth Golden said...

I am so sorry that this is happening to you and your mother. I can not imagine. I did go through this with my father just a little over a year ago. It is not easy. I am sending you virtual hugs and many prayers!

jencushman said...

I'm so sorry to read this for you, your mom and your entire family. My thoughts are with all of you. XO -- Jen

Liz Kettle said...

Sending prayers and strength for you and your family Tracie. Know you have our love and support.

Liz Kettle said...

Sending prayers and strength for you and your family Tracie. Know you have our love and support.

Amanda said...

Oh my dear, I am so heavy hearted for you.

kateri ewing said...

I hope each day gets a little easier. Thoughts for your family. And I love the words you arranged on the fabric. :)

Leslie Tucker Jenison said...

Tracie, I'm so sorry to read this terrible news about your mother.
Thinking of you during this difficult time.
Leslie